I’ve made no secret of the fact that mentally I am struggling with life at the moment, for a whole heap of reasons. I also suspect there is a direct correlation with the fact I am struggling with my circuits and the nutrition.
It is daft really because more than anything, when I am low is probably the time I need to eat better and use exercise to get that endorphin rush. Yet something seems impossibly hard at the moment. A self perpetuating cycle of getting down, eating crap, feeling down for eating crap, putting in a poor performance at the gym, getting down because of that and so on and so on. I feel like I am spiralling out of control. But the problem is the more I think about it, the worse it becomes as I sink lower and lower.
It needs to stop. I need to snap that cycle of being down and focus again on the positives and pushing forwards with my health. I can’t go back.
The lyrics of the above song are hitting a chord with me at the moment:
I think I am being fooled at the moment.