I started with my warm up and I was sweating profusely. It is never going well when even the warm up is killing you. I pushed on through the first circuit and pulled a time of 7 & 1/2 mins, not the best time but not the worst either, I felt a bit sick. I started the 2nd circuit and BAM, 2 exercises in I felt sick and REALLY dizzy. I’ve not had this for a few weeks. It was bad enough to make me need to lay down with my feet resting up on a step (looking like a complete tit). At one point I very nearly blacked out, having blacked out twice in my life I know what it feels like and I don’t like it.
So at that point I did my cool down, felt a bit fed up and went for a shower.
Whilst I was getting changed and feeling a bit sorry for myself I encountered a woman called Helen. Helen is in her 70s (maybe she is me in the future) and she is quite possibly one of the most positive, motivational woman I have EVER met.
Helen was chatting to another woman. They were talking about age. She was saying how age is just a number, it doesn’t matter, it is how you feel inside. She then went on to say how people ask her if she has any regrets in her life. She said “I tell people, I don’t have any regrets, every experience is good or bad and you can learn something from them. There is no point in having regrets, it is just life and I wouldn’t change a thing I’ve done.”
She was so positive about life. I’d love to get her to come in and do an assembly for year 11!
She comes to the gym a fair bit (I hope I’m still doing that at 70+!) but I also hope I can be that positive about life. At the moment I am quite a pessimist. Maybe I am just tired and it is the end of a long term. Maybe after 2 weeks off work (if you don’t count marking 100+ Y11 mock papers!) I might feel a bit brighter. The cloud is beginning to lift though especially with the help of decent exercise.
Last night I went out. My good friend Hannah is leaving our school next week so a few of us went out for dinner and drinks. I haven’t been out since August! Having lost 4 & 1/2 stone I decided to buy a new dress, new heels etc.
I also had a drink. After a bit of a discussion about drink with Jason, I decided to just have a few drinks of what I fancied. I had a white wine and soda with my meal (the soda was a great idea because I haven’t had alcohol in ages so it diluted it down) then I had 2 vodka and diet cokes. After an intense day at work I thought I might get absolutely hammered but as it turned out I was too tired and 2 & 1/2 alcoholic drinks were more than enough.
So I ate my pizza, I enjoyed it , I drank alcohol and enjoyed it, and now I am back eating clean today. No damage done. It’s all good.